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this is about me, my days, my thoughts and my bead jewelry work. Some postings are in indonesian, and some are in english.

Mittwoch, April 05, 2006

It is not OK

When something bad happen to us, all we ever think is ‘why’. We give ourselves the question and end up answering the question. We reason with our head, and keep telling ourselves that everything will be OK. Everything will be fine.

But today, I just realized it’s not OK to say something is OK when you know it is not. I tried to deal with something that previously I though just a small weave of my life, but it seems to be more than just a weave. I just realized it occupied me and my heart more than my brain would allow me to. And it just hit me. I did not realized before that exact time that all my anger, all my desperation, all my exhausted life were not because of my children. I was upset to my son because I thought he is so unwilling to do his best on math. I was angry to my other son because he was so complaining about all things. I was exhausted and my back ached not because we had so full and busy week. It is the anger, the desperation and the disappointment I had in my heart that I kept denying that made everything so miserable. No it is not Ok.

It is not Ok if you change yourselves just because you want any other party to accept you as they want you to be.
It is not Ok if you were been put aside just because some thing they have on their mind or on their heart.
It is not Ok to discriminate people just because they do not share the same value to you

No It is not OK.